It began with so much apprehension on my part, and it stemmed from the uncertainty of not knowing what to expect. From what I have gathered from my friends' experiences, I seem to have grown cautious with my reservations aplenty with regards to this, yet, it somehow becomes unexplainably overshadowed by a mysterious force whose long list of by-products would include a feeling of warmth, comfort, joy and somehow, a little bit of nervousness.
Stomach, meet butterflies.
Anyways, I have given this so much thought. Of course, I may not be entirely sure of it right now but I'm really almost there. There hasn't been a day that passed where progess wasn't made. Be it leaps and bounds or tiny, minute intricacies, every day and every step has made a positive difference.
I have allowed myself sufficient incubation time for this to develop from it's raw infancy to something so fertile. I've been wading in a cesspool for two decades and now is the time to cross over to a more challenging body of water. I know for a fact that it won't be easy but as I have proven to myself countless times before, I am capable enough of adjusting to new forces in my life.
The deeper depth, the new circumstances, the unpredictability. The new experiences and different challenges. I am as aware as I am clueless. However, this, I know, will all be worth it. Besides, I won't learn anything if i don't advance beyond my comfort zone and into deeper waters. My abilities may be limited but that's the exact reason why I'm so willing to go through with this; to learn, to grow and to be a best me I can be. For you, for me, and for us.
This is it.
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